The “like” that counts
Ever since I was a little girl I had a strong desire to have some effect on this world for good. Sharing my testimony and being a quiet example. Well, years passed, I grew and I had my first child and then got word that we would be moving out of the country to Malaysia for a year. It captivated me to start a blog to record my adventure. At first this was fun, I loved sharing my adventure but soon I got drawn into the Instagram blog world. All of a sudden I started questioning things I was posting, feeling bad if I didn’t hit a certain amount of likes, and comparing my life to others. Sadly enough the Instagram life consumed me. I was trapped in this cyber world of people I have never even met before but yet wanted to be there best friends. Craving attention from people who really didn’t know me. People posting pictures of things they had, posed pictures of motherhood moments, peoples adventures… its crazy to say but I got caught up in living other peoples life and not my own. Instagram began an addiction, I felt like if I wasn’t posting about my life people wouldn’t like me anymore. I felt like if I didn’t comment and like other peoples photos they would be upset, and I would feel miserable when someone un-followed me thinking to myself “what have I done to personally offend this person?” Literally it brought the weight of the world on my shoulders and I was feeling like I lost sight of who that little girl, Kaylynne, was years ago of wanting to share my testimony and being an example. Instead I felt like I was drowning and loosing sight of who I was. I prayed hard for sometime of what to do. That’s when I decided to stop Instagram all together. This was hard for me because the pride in myself said to keep doing it, that eventually I would be better but I tried that a couple of times and it never panned out. That little like button can hurt, Instagram became a popularity contest not a way to document memories. I feel like I have to say now “Hi my name is Kaylynne and I was addicted to social media”… phewww! Now that I can get that off my chest I feel a bazillion times better. Since I have left that world behind I feel like I have found my happy self again and don’t compare as much. I was living in the world standard and not in Gods standard. The thing is I got so caught up in getting likes from others I wasn’t focusing on getting likes from God, my children, friends, and husband. I’m not bashing social media, I understand that it can do great things but personally for me life feels more free without it. I challenge anyone who reads this to give it a try for a week. See if it helps you. It may be weighing you down more than you think it is. Learn to like yourself through prayer each day with God. After all His like is the only one that counts.