Texas family

Texas family

So a while ago we went and visited my Dad’s side of the family in Texas. We had such a great time with them and really wished we could have stayed longer. While we were there we celebrated my grandmas birthday. She’s a pretty incredible women with having 13 kids and I loose count with how many grandkids and great grandkids she has. Stockton was in heaven running all over the place with his cousins. I put together little recordings I took while we were there and it just makes me smile and look forward to the next time I will see them all. Heres the clip below. A long time coming but finally got around to posting it. Texas family we love...

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The “like” that counts

The “like” that counts

Ever since I was a little girl I had a strong desire to have some effect on this world for good. Sharing my testimony and being a quiet example. Well, years passed, I grew and I had my first child and then got word that we would be moving out of the country to Malaysia for a year. It captivated me to start a blog to record my adventure. At first this was fun, I loved sharing my adventure but soon I got drawn into the Instagram blog world. All of a sudden I started questioning things I was posting, feeling bad if I didn’t hit a certain amount of likes, and comparing my life to others. Sadly enough the Instagram life consumed me. I was trapped in this cyber world of people I have never even met before but yet wanted to be there best friends. Craving attention from people who really didn’t know me. People posting pictures of things they had, posed pictures of motherhood moments, peoples adventures… its crazy to say but I got caught up in living other peoples life and not my own. Instagram began an addiction, I felt like if I wasn’t posting about my life people wouldn’t like me anymore. I felt like if I didn’t comment and like other peoples photos they would be upset, and I would feel miserable when someone un-followed me thinking to myself “what have I done to personally offend this person?” Literally it brought the weight of the world on my shoulders and I was feeling like I lost sight of who that little girl, Kaylynne, was years ago of wanting to share my testimony and being an example. Instead I felt like I was drowning and loosing sight of who I was. I prayed hard for sometime of what to do. That’s when I decided to stop Instagram all together. This was hard for me because the pride in myself said to keep doing it, that eventually I would be better but I tried that a couple of times and it never panned out. That little like button can hurt, Instagram became a popularity contest not a way to document memories. I feel like I have to say now “Hi my name is Kaylynne and I was addicted to social media”… phewww! Now that I can get that off my chest I feel a bazillion times better. Since I have left that world behind I feel like I have found my happy self again and don’t compare as much. I was living in the world standard and not in Gods standard. The thing is I got so caught up in getting likes from others I...

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Venice’s baby blessing

Venice’s baby blessing

Today we blessed are sweet little daughter Venice Malay Lisonbee. It was such a special moment. The morning of the blessing I was so frantic trying to make sure everything would be perfect. I was so worried that she would have a bad blow out in her pretty white dress. She has become quite the blow out queen. In fact I take a picture everyday to show Matt as proof that she has yet again blown out of a very cute outfit that I have to throw away. I know I could just wash it but the idea of poop just floating around in my washing machine makes me gag. So to think of her having a blow out was giving me nightmares. This dress is very sentimental to me as her grandparents are serving a mission in Brazil and her grandmother sent it to me. By having her wear this dress it felt like Bianca and Dave were sharing this day with us. She also wore my bonnet I wore when I was blessed. It was very special to have a lot of meaning to her clothes. After all I feel like Venice’s name has a lot of meaning as well. With her first name being named after my grandmother who passed away when I was little and her middle name being an abbreviation of Malaysia, it just felt right to bring that in with her blessing. I worked so hard to have Venice fall asleep right before her blessing because she is 5 months now and cooing like crazy so I thought she would just talk the whole entire time during her blessing. Well luckily she fell asleep right before,  I then transferred her into Matt’s arms where she just laid on her daddies chest without a care in the world, so safe and protected from the world. To me the moments that make me more attracted to Matt than ever, are the moments when I look into his eyes and see the love he has for our children. This was one of those moments and even thinking about the look I saw in his eyes just before her blessing makes my heart swell. When the blessing  Venice woke up but just sat quiet looking at all the men surrounding her. She was so peaceful and still the whole blessing. There’s just something so special about a baby blessing… fresh life, new beginnings, and being untouched from this wicked world. Perhaps my favorite part of  it all is getting to spend time with family afterwards and having their support. I feel like I have the best family in the world on both sides. Just thinking about Sundays with...

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my little buddy

my little buddy

Today was a very hard day one for the books. With a colicky baby and a busy toddler it leaves little to no time for me to get things done. Showers, makeup, and sleep are all foreign words to me that I long to know the meaning of again. However the end to this night was very different that my day. I had one of those moments with stocky where I feel like I have so much love pounding out of my chest, I feel like there’s going to be an explosion of fireworks coming out. It all started when I was putting him down for bed we did our normal routine. Say a prayer pull up a picture of Jesus and read some scriptures. But after we had finished Stockton begged me to snuggle with him. His little pleading voice saying, “please mama cuddle”, made me do exactly the opposite of what I wanted to on such a long day and that is crawl into his little bed with him. I was really looking forward to my break at the end of the night but I’m glad I put aside those feelings of the day to have such a sweet moment with him. He proceeded to say, “hold hand mama”. My favorite thing to do with him in the world is to feel his little fingers pressed firmly in between mine holding so tightly his little palms are sweaty. His other hand wrapped around my neck and our faces cheek to cheek he than tells me I love you so much. That’s when he asked me to sing I’m a child of God. Something I really have never sang too much with him before that he must have gained from nursery. As we sang the words just flew off his tongue and he took the lead. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. He knew the whole song. At the end of the song tears filled my eyes and I told Stockton how much I loved the song and then he said mama I love Jesus. I than told him I loved Jesus too. I realized that his little voice singing those words was so much more than what I heard but rather a testimony of Christ from a 2-year-old. It was just one of those moments where your singing praises to motherhood and you just crave for time to stand still never wanting that moment to end but to live in it indefinitely. As I continued to lay next to him I just felt the love for my son the savior had so strongly. I can’t even imagine how much Christ loves...

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a little update

a little update

Life lately with two kids has kept me on my toes. I finally feel like I’m not nursing all day everyday and have a better schedule down. Venice is less colicky and Stocky has grown even fonder of her now that he realizes she doesn’t scream all the time. Also Utah’s winter has been beautiful its felt more like spring, so we have been enjoying every second of it. Heres a little update of what each of us have been up to lately. Stockton: Talking more than ever but probably singing even more than that. He loves it, and every Sunday after nursery he sings me some new song. He loves to run and trust me he’s good and fast at it. I’m constantly chasing after him everywhere we go. Recently he started drawing pictures of people. He always comes up to me and says. “look at my man.” It’s usually just a circle with two dots for eyeballs and a string from its head. It looks more like a tadpole to me but he just beams with excitement as he proudly marches around the room with a victory dance. He loves tomatoes in fact if I leave one out he will eat it like an apple. He’s starting to make jokes lately. He calls people by different names even though he knows there real names and then laugh’s and says, “nooope I silly.” When he gets excited he beams and says “Oh my gosh.” He loves surprises and asks for the every day especially after he goes potty on the toilet he wants some reward. Stockton’s Italian is in full swing. He’s constantly surprising us with new words each day. Pretty soon I’m not going to understand anything he’s saying. His hair is out of control curly and we love it so much. He is still such a lover and will kissing anything and everything. Things Stockton has kissed lately: random people’s dogs, shoes, his shadow, sissies lips constantly, his reflection, little girls in primary, and pretty much anyone who asks for one. Venice: Just this last week Venice has discovered her voice. She coo’s so loud and then kicks her legs with excitement recognizing that the sound is coming from her. She is rolling over from her tummy to her back and holding her head up really well. She is laughing and smiling all the time, but mostly when daddy rubs her hands on his beard. She’s been sleeping through the night for the past couple of days but I’m knocking on wood. She snorts when she hungry and eating and literally is the gassiest little baby ever farting all the time. Sometimes people think its me and its...

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new year new goals

new year new goals

I have made several new goals for the new year but one that is at top of my list is to have scripture study every night with Stockton. I was a little concerned on how he would take having to sit still for one whole chapter a night in the Book of Mormon seeing he is only 2 and a half but what he did the other night shocked me. As we were laying down and reading scriptures we actually had just finished he whispered to me in his sweet little voice that he loved Jesus. It really struck home to me that he is not to little to understand about the scriptures. Although he may not follow along with the concept very well he realizes that what it is all about is Jesus. It was a sweet little reminder to me too. I just love that boy so much my heart hurts thinking about it....

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